I... [ he's at a loss for words and he feels that sting in his nose, the telltale sign of tears, when he can't even remember the last time he was moved that way. after losing his mother, he was raised as a dog, reminded every day of how he was more a beast than a man even by the people he slept with.
for wanning to say those things, it's to embrace mo ran completely and the younger man doesn't think he's ever been that happy, even with all the happy moments his better half has been gifting him.
he doesn't allow himself to cry but he sniffs, and he's glad he found an excuse and shut himself in the bathroom for the time being, lest his relatives see him like that.
it's a few minutes before he replies. ]
Thank you, Wanning. I... cannot put in words how much I love you, how good you are. I don't know how it's possible for me to deserve you.
Asking you to marry me was the best decision of my life.
But, ah... how dumb of me, it's your day and I made it about myself. I'm sorry about that.
Do you think I could manage to make you run out of stamina? After all your build is different... but, you know, my heart is always at your mercy. [ he can't help joking to lighten up his mood and he waits for the other to yell at him for how cheesy he is. he can almost picture him shaking his head as he reads his text and try hard not to smile. ]
[ mo ran always seems so much better at handling the emotional side of things, along with people, that chu wanning is a little worried about the delay in his response, wondering if he said something wrong.
he's relieved once he gets mo ran's reply, even if it makes him huff and sigh. ]
It is not about deserving or anything like that, stop talking all this nonsense. There are no apologies needed here.
And don't say such things like that! Who even says that?
[ but he's hopelessly fond of mo ran, and it lacks the usual bite. ]
You will have to test your abilities, if you are so intrigued at seeing if you can make me run out of stamina.
[ he laughs by himself at the flustered and "harsh" way wanning replies to his cheesy line. ah, he's happy. ]
I will do my utmost best, senior Chu. You won't regret having picked me as your husband. I have enough stamina to match you! It's clear in the mornings, right? [ though that's a bit like cheating since when there's sunlight out, wanning tends to become a little softer, almost sleepy. ]
Baobei... after we've gotten married, because of the rings, it may be difficult to hide the matter to uncle and aunt and Mengmeng. What do you want us to do?
You are so eager in the mornings, you almost have too much energy. I'm an old man, even if I have the stamina, my knees creak. [ they don't really, he's mostly grumbling to grumble. especially since, in the mornings when the sun is out and before he sleeps, he's much more pliant, something he's discovered with mo ran. ]
Ah. We should inform them, as I know you would not want to lie to your family, and it will be hard to keep matching rings from them. Perhaps sooner than the wedding, so they are not surprised after.
[ and also so mo ran can invite them along, if he wants. ]
Wanning!!! [ he's horrified by the loud and amused snorting noise he made at that comment, drawing towards him the look of an especially suspicious xue meng asking for the nth time who he's texting with. mo ran offers to show him the dick pic he just received from one of his lovers, to get his cousin yelling and off his case at least for a while. ]
Your knees don't creak. You're so silly.
Gods, I love you so much. [ sometimes it's much like a wave of affection, making his chest feel tight in the most beautiful way possible. he never thought he could feel like that with anyone. he never thought love was something for him. ]
But I know you aren't comfortable telling them... It would feel like I'm cornering you. Maybe we can avoid wearing our rings when we're at school. Or wear them on a necklace.
I couldn't wear it at swimming practice anyway, chlorine would make it ugly in no time and it'd be too precious for that.
They do! When I get up from working on my robotics, they always make noises. How do you not hear them?
Don't say such things over me complaining! Behave!!
[ but he does love reading that, knowing how much mo ran loves him. he's still not used to having someone like this in his life, and loving and being loved in return. ]
I do not mind telling them. They are important to you and you should be free to be open with the people you care for. We will see what happens.
And no, do not wear it in the pool. But we can keep them on necklaces, if that would be easier.
What? You ever get up from working on your robots? That's news to me. That must be why I never heard that noise. [ he easily teases him, since wanning still has that terrible habit of never taking breaks. ]
Or maybe it's because it gets covered by your complaining when I lift you and forcibly carry you to bed.
I'm behaving! I haven't even said anything explicit in some minutes~
I... will think about it. As much as I love them, marriage is just between the two of us.
But I like the idea of you wearing your ring on your hand, for everyone to see you belong to me. Also as soon as we go on our honeymoon, it'll be the only thing you're allowed to wear.
When you're away, I have to, when I remember I need to sleep, or need a part I don't have at hand. You never hear them because you insist on picking me up. [ because mo ran insists, of course, not because chu wanning wouldn't get up otherwise. ]
Our marriage is just between us. But if you wish to tell them, we can.
The only thing I'm allowed to wear?! MO RAN!! I am out going out wearing only a ring.
You say that like you always go to rest properly on your bed and I haven't found you asleep on the floor, or leaning on your desk a few times... I really need to be at home as often as possible, or you won't give your body a break at all.
Would it embarrass you, telling them? Answer me honestly.
Ah, you see, the thing is that I plan to keep you in bed the whole time. I will learn by heart and kiss every line of your body and you will get to drink from me whenever you wish. I want to have your marks all over.
I do not need sleep like normal humans. It is an advantage of my condition. But I would not complain if you were home more often, though I do not wish to keep you from enjoying yourself.
It would not embarrass me. I am simply unused to sharing personal details with people.
Oh. If that is the plan, then wearing a ring is... acceptable. Still shameless to spend so much time in bed, nude, but we can indulge for our honeymoon. I would like that, to spend so much time with you and enjoy your presence.
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for wanning to say those things, it's to embrace mo ran completely and the younger man doesn't think he's ever been that happy, even with all the happy moments his better half has been gifting him.
he doesn't allow himself to cry but he sniffs, and he's glad he found an excuse and shut himself in the bathroom for the time being, lest his relatives see him like that.
it's a few minutes before he replies. ]
Thank you, Wanning. I... cannot put in words how much I love you, how good you are. I don't know how it's possible for me to deserve you.
Asking you to marry me was the best decision of my life.
But, ah... how dumb of me, it's your day and I made it about myself. I'm sorry about that.
Do you think I could manage to make you run out of stamina? After all your build is different... but, you know, my heart is always at your mercy. [ he can't help joking to lighten up his mood and he waits for the other to yell at him for how cheesy he is. he can almost picture him shaking his head as he reads his text and try hard not to smile. ]
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he's relieved once he gets mo ran's reply, even if it makes him huff and sigh. ]
It is not about deserving or anything like that, stop talking all this nonsense. There are no apologies needed here.
And don't say such things like that! Who even says that?
[ but he's hopelessly fond of mo ran, and it lacks the usual bite. ]
You will have to test your abilities, if you are so intrigued at seeing if you can make me run out of stamina.
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I will do my utmost best, senior Chu. You won't regret having picked me as your husband. I have enough stamina to match you! It's clear in the mornings, right? [ though that's a bit like cheating since when there's sunlight out, wanning tends to become a little softer, almost sleepy. ]
Baobei... after we've gotten married, because of the rings, it may be difficult to hide the matter to uncle and aunt and Mengmeng. What do you want us to do?
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Ah. We should inform them, as I know you would not want to lie to your family, and it will be hard to keep matching rings from them. Perhaps sooner than the wedding, so they are not surprised after.
[ and also so mo ran can invite them along, if he wants. ]
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Your knees don't creak. You're so silly.
Gods, I love you so much. [ sometimes it's much like a wave of affection, making his chest feel tight in the most beautiful way possible. he never thought he could feel like that with anyone. he never thought love was something for him. ]
But I know you aren't comfortable telling them... It would feel like I'm cornering you. Maybe we can avoid wearing our rings when we're at school. Or wear them on a necklace.
I couldn't wear it at swimming practice anyway, chlorine would make it ugly in no time and it'd be too precious for that.
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Don't say such things over me complaining! Behave!!
[ but he does love reading that, knowing how much mo ran loves him. he's still not used to having someone like this in his life, and loving and being loved in return. ]
I do not mind telling them. They are important to you and you should be free to be open with the people you care for. We will see what happens.
And no, do not wear it in the pool. But we can keep them on necklaces, if that would be easier.
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Or maybe it's because it gets covered by your complaining when I lift you and forcibly carry you to bed.
I'm behaving! I haven't even said anything explicit in some minutes~
I... will think about it. As much as I love them, marriage is just between the two of us.
But I like the idea of you wearing your ring on your hand, for everyone to see you belong to me. Also as soon as we go on our honeymoon, it'll be the only thing you're allowed to wear.
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Our marriage is just between us. But if you wish to tell them, we can.
The only thing I'm allowed to wear?! MO RAN!! I am out going out wearing only a ring.
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Would it embarrass you, telling them? Answer me honestly.
Ah, you see, the thing is that I plan to keep you in bed the whole time. I will learn by heart and kiss every line of your body and you will get to drink from me whenever you wish. I want to have your marks all over.
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It would not embarrass me. I am simply unused to sharing personal details with people.
Oh. If that is the plan, then wearing a ring is... acceptable. Still shameless to spend so much time in bed, nude, but we can indulge for our honeymoon. I would like that, to spend so much time with you and enjoy your presence.